It's Going Down I'm Yelling Tinder!

            So it’s spring break and while everyone else is Girls Gone Wild I’m sitting on my couch doing nothing. Typical. Whenever I come home I basically become a hermit only going to the gym and talking to myself saying  I never want to come home again.

            Although I’m 21 I never know what to do when I’m home because I don’t know the places that are “good” to go to. My high school friends don’t really help in this, trying to making plans is basically back and forth texting saying “what should we do” then “I don’t care I’ll do anything.” In my fantasies I picture myself going out to a really fun bar but the reality is me putting Let It Go on repeat while I eat the entire continents in my fridge.

            Yesterday I made the executive decision to join Tinder. If you haven’t heard of Tinder yet it’s a dating app that let’s you swipe if you like or dislike someone. When two people swipe like then you become a match and you can start messaging each other if you want.

            At first I was like Woooo this is fun while I was swiping through the pictures. I was mostly swiping dislike because all of the people were a little too old for my dating liking. Eventually I got three matches but then doom sent in, how do I start conversation. Already deemed “The Worst Texter” by all my friends I was at a loss on how to start and keep a conversation especially since we have never met before. I guess that’s the beauty of it getting to reinvent yourself to a stranger for a while. It also makes you look closely at yourself. How are people seeing you by five pictures? They don’t know anything about you but make an assumption about who you are by what you look like.

            Tinder is kind of like real life, you meet people everyday but we always know the people that appeal to us in a crowd after a few seconds. You don’t get involved with people your not interested in and vice versa. It’s crazy to say that it’s all about attractiveness in the beginning with personalities coming in second.

           


What if were swiping past the great guys because were to busy paying attention to what they look like on the outside? 

CMA 2014 Conference

These past three days I had the opportunity to go to the CMA conference which stands for College Media Association. It offers workshops and speakers to students across the U.S who are interested in being apart of the media industry when they graduate.

Wednesday we got to New York City early and had the whole day to explore. No city will ever compare to New York, there is just this energy that pulses through the streets that brings you along with it. Called "the city that never sleeps" there is something always going on and interesting people to look at as well. Me and my three friends who all came for the conference got to be on VH1 just by walking by at the right moment. My teacher even got to meet Chris Rock at MoMa.

Even though it's great being on TV or meeting a celebrity the real reason I got to skip three days of midterms was for the conference. The conference was such an amazing eye opening experience for me because it showed how many opportunities there truly are. I got to talk to Bonnie Fuller, who was Editor in Chief for Cosmopolitan, Glamour, Marie Claire, and many more magazines. It's crazy how much these people have accomplished. Listening to these professional media correspondents it makes you feel inspired and it's that extra push that tells you to just keep going you can make your dreams come true.

Isn't that all we truly want? It doesn't matter if you want to work in the media, be a teacher, personal trainer, or even be a parent everyone wants their innermost dreams to come true. I know it may sound cheesy but anything is possible. It's going to be hard, your going to want to give up at times but you have to stick it out because with enough passion you can't fail.

I'm so grateful I was able to attend this conference because although I'm scared as hell for the future and I don't know exactly what I want to do this has given me the push to keep moving forward.

Never Ever Give Up...

Stand Tall It Gets A Little Better

            You never know when the most shocking things are going to happen because they just happen without notice and right then and there your knocked off your feet.

            Tonight my friend that I have known from freshmen year of college is dropping out of school and going home tomorrow. She’s not dropping out because of grades she’s dropping out because she isn’t mentally stable to continue.

            The words that came out of her mouth made the room fall silent. “I haven’t been feeling myself” and how she hasn’t been sleeping well lately. What teared me to the core was when she said that she was depressed and was having suicidal thoughts.

            When your friend that you care about says that you think about how you could have been so oblivious to not have seen this coming. Your room is right next to her!! She hasn’t wanted to go out as much this semester. I wrote it off as not wanting to do anything because she just started dating this guy. I knew she wasn’t sleeping but I thought maybe she was just thinking too much and I noticed she was around the house more; less time in class.

            I guess there are a lot of things that I SHOULD HAVE seen but didn’t but there is honestly nothing I could have done or planned for this to have happened. She said she did a good job of hiding it from everyone. She didn’t tell anyone. I don’t know how people do that, keeping a huge secret like that. Embarrassed was the word she described her situation. How can you be embarrassed it’s not your fault even though it seems like it is.

            The worst part is I don’t know whether I’m going to see her again. She’s leaving tomorrow and I don’t know when she’s coming back. It hasn’t fully set in yet that I’m not going to see her going into the bathroom every morning, dance with her during pregame,’s and get annoyed with her like I would any friend. I wish I could have helped her. I hope she knows she’s not alone; it’s so easy to feel alone, to get caught up in something that you can’t handle it. I don’t even know how to act around her anymore.

Do I act normal?

Do I act extra gentle?

           

            Sometimes you feel like you’re the only one suffering that every has this perfect life while your sitting there struggling but if you look a little closer not everything is the way it seems. Appreciate the people your around everyday even stranger’s even at their worst points because you never know the pain they carry with them. 

Quarter Life Crisis

            What am I doing with my life is a question I ask myself on a daily basis. As I was sitting with my advisor this week he asked me what I wanted to do when I graduated. Even though I’m only a junior and I have one more year to make the crucial decision I drew a blank. Who ever thought this huge responsibility should be thrust upon everyone’s shoulders when there still trying to figure out themselves should be smacked in the face.

            I’m just 21 years old and I feel like I should have a set plan for the rest of my life. Everyone seems to be moving forward but my actions feel more like one small step forward then getting pushed two big steps back. 

           

            There is this one girl who goes to my school and she recently went to New York Fashion Week. She actually got the opportunity to see Rebecca Taylor’s fashion show and interview an E! News correspondent. I decided to look on her blog and I discovered she also went to Tokyo last month. Seriously Tokyo?!? I felt like I was watching an episode of Gossip Girl because it felt so surreal but no it was real life. 

            I guess in this generation it’s so easy to look at someone your age or even younger and compare yourself to what their doing and how far they have come. What ends up happening is that you feel bad for everything that hasn’t been accomplished or what didn’t work out. It's safe to say that I'm scared of what the future holds because I want to make it a good one but I would regret if I didn't obtain my goals and dreams.

            Why is it that we take for granted everything we have achieved in life and only see the empty promises of what we think we should’ve have done by now?