Welcome To The New Year

New year new you. That's what is on everyone's mind as the new year approaches. Even though people make fun of resolutions I love the idea that you can throw away the past and put your best foot forward into the new year.

 I always enjoy thinking about my life when it comes close to the ball dropping and saying to myself "so much has changed this year." I believe it really has changed some points for the better others for the worst but everything that has happened has taught me something. This year I'm hoping to make it better than the year before here is my list:

• Don't expect too much from people- I have this big problem that I have standards that I want the people in my life to meet and the majority of the time they don't meet it. Whether if it's my best friend not being there for me ever or my pickiness of guys I have to be able to accept people they way they are. With high expectations your never going to win it's as simple as that.

• Use money for experiences- I realized that I would rather use the money I earn for memories than have it waste away in a bank. I am dying to travel the world. I don't know when I am going to do it but I will. Yes I know that saving is important but it's better to travel go to concerts before we really have responsibilities. My friend is studying abroad in Germany and I'm trying to save my Christmas money to be able to visit her while she's there.

• Over think less- I think too much that my thoughts literally keep me up at night. Sometimes I think I'm crazy because when I go to a place I think about scenario's that can happen and what would I do. Even during conversations I think too much into what people are saying and I basically over think even the simplest texts. 

• Just Do It- Any opportunity I want to just do it. Even if it ends up being awful or boring at least I tried. In the new year I want to have no regrets just crazy stories on some things that might have not worked out the way I wanted.

• Be more open to new things- I want to be more open this year to change. Normally I get nervous when things change because I want to go back to how it used to be but life is always changing. So I might as well stop fighting the waves of change and learn to just ride it out

Although I have these changes that I would like to make you don't need a new year to decide to become a new you. The opportunity to change yourself and you life for the better is within your reach every. single. day and I'm going to use 2014 to become an even better version of myself.

Casino Christmas

This year Christmas was spent differently then any other year. Normally we would go to a family members house and be bored for the majority of the day but this Christmas me and my mom went to the casino.

My grandfather died this May and we both really didn't feel like going anywhere even though we never actually said it out loud. My idea was to go see a movie and just hang but my mom wanted to go to the casino. I recently turned 21 in November and my mom wanted to show me what the casino's were like so we went on a little trip.

I don't know what I was expecting from the casino but from the moment I got there I wanted to leave. Something was so unsettling about people spending large sums of money I saw a man spend over 5,000 dollars in Blackjack betting hundreds each game. I already hate spending money on stupid things so this was an issue.

How do people play slots the entire time they are at the casino because they are so repetitive and boring. People can sit there for hours pushing the spin button over and over. If I am going to bet I do not want to spend countless hours testing how far my patience can go while I'm on the penny slots.

What I realized at the casino is that although you may be people at a casino your basically playing by yourself because it's your money. I was also surprised how crowded it was on Christmas. The only bright side of spending my Christmas at a casino were the free drinks involved that never stopped coming. But after getting countless dirty looks and "your an alcoholic"comments from my mom I decided my drinking fun was over.


My first time at a casino will be a time I would like to forget, hopefully when I go to A.C or a better casino I'll have a better time. Maybe I will have an actual job by then as well because right now in my life how can I bet when I don't know if I'll get anything in return because the most likely situation is that I lose whatever I bet. I don't want to waste money do you know who I am?

A broke college student.

Social Media: Does It Do More Harm Than Good?

 I use social media on a daily basis or more honestly on a hourly basis. Every weekend I wake up have my coffee and read all of my feeds on each social media account. When I'm bored I keep clicking refresh to try to fulfill my boredom. When I'm hanging out with friends it's not a real hangout until someone documents it with pictures on Instagram or Snapchat photos.

Although I absolutely love social media and the ways it has let people connect with each other I sometimes wish it was never created. Social media has that ability to let people but their best foot forward and show the world how great their life is. But I think this can also be problematic because people can become depressed from seeing all your highlights without seeing the struggles.

I can say that when I see people doing amazing things I wonder why my life isn't like there's and that feeling is upsetting. Social media has changed how people interact with each other at least in my friend group. When were all hanging out someone is always on their phones and even though they are probably tweeting something funny that someone said why do you have to post it? No one really cares about that. I came to hangout with you not have to converse through Twitter to actually have fun.

Why do people post selfie's everyday? I usually ask myself this question while I am scrolling through my Instagram photo's seeing the Selfie Queen. The Selfie Queen Instagram's a picture of herself more than once a week and she does the same face in every picture. The caption for her pictures are quotes and phrases like natural lighting.

I take a selfie when I'm feeling extra pretty but when it keeps getting repetitive it gets boring. Come on Selfie Queen give us something new something unexpected like a funny face.

I love social media like Twitter and Instagram and I don't know what I would do without it but maybe if we all stopped trying to impress people with our lives we should actually go out and live it for ourselves.

Why Tattoo's Make Me Nervous

Last night I went with my best friend to get her second tattoo. Although I love tattoo's on some people like celebrities Adam Levine and Angelina Jolie but when my friends tell me they want a tattoo I just get really nervous.

It doesn't help that I have no clue what to call where you get your tattoo done is it a tattoo salon, tattoo parlor to make it sound welcoming? I end saying the tattoo place it kind of has a nice ring to it.

Here is why getting Tattoo's make me nervous.

1. They are permanent. I know you may be saying I know this already but I'm serious they never come off unless you get them removed and I heard that process can be quite painful. So one day when you don't want your little butterfly or chinese writing on your body anymore it's not going to magically vanish overnight.

2. The tattoo places that I see don't look very friendly I rarely see people going in and out. Some of the buildings resemble where the location of my next nightmare is going to take place.

3. There were also skulls everywhere. Who knows if any were real. Honestly, I don't want to know. I felt that anytime I was scoping the place out they were staring at me. Also the pictures weren't hung straight so my inner OCD had to be silenced with wanting to fix them.

4. You can get infected. If this tattoo place is sanitary they could be giving you dirty needles which can lead to your tattoo getting infected which is pretty scary.

5. While I was waiting for my friend to get her tattoo done I was imagining if the artist really wanted to she could stab me with one of the needles. I don't know if it would cause any damage but it would definitely be a traumatizing experience. That's why I think it's important that people go to people they trust to ink them up so that doesn't happen.

6. At the parlor it had a sign that said "give your loved ones a gift that lasts forever" featuring a gift card  for the parlor. This made me the most nervous because what if you gave someone a gift card who didn't want a tattoo then they would be pressured to getting one because it's the gift that lasts forever. A lot of other things last forever too like love and friendship did anyone forget that?

7. Did I mention that they last forever? FOREVER. Yes you heard that right.

My friend's tattoo came out great and she was happy because it was exactly what she wanted. Even though tattoo's may not be for me I understand why they are so popular. If your going to get a tattoo make sure the place cleans it's needles and that the person who is doing your tattoo can see.

Happy Inking!!

Procrastination At It's Finest

Happy Almost Finals Week! Or what I like to call it procrastination week.

Leading up to finals can be stressful and anxiety ridden with people staying up all night to study. But this is when I feel like procrastination comes in. Everyone wants to deny that finals are almost here and the best way to do that is pretend you don't have to study just yet.

Netflix, laying in bed, or just hanging out at your apartment all sound more appealing then taking the time to prepare for finals. Lately I have been doing everything in my power to distract myself from all the work that I have to do in the upcoming week. My favorite distraction is making lists on what I have do but I don't end up crossing off more than two things. I'm not saying I am going to just wing my finals but for now I'm not going to stress myself out more than I should.

I sometimes just don't understand why I have to cram all this information inside my head that immediately vanishes when I hand in my test. When am I seriously going to need to know what an acid and a base is? The answer is probably never but I still have to know about it for a class.

Maybe another reason that I don't want to take finals is that I don't want this semester to end. Some of my friends are graduating this year and I'm not ready for them to leave yet. The semester ending also brings me a little closer to senior which is just mind-blowing to think about how fast time goes.

So if you are getting ready to take your finals soon procrastinate a bit enjoy the last bit of the semester while you can.

Finding An Internship: More Difficult Than It Looks

When I was told I had to get an internship for my major I immediately thought of Carrie in Sex and The City with her Christian Louboutin shoes strutting around the city or maybe I would intern for Cosmopolitan magazine meeting handsome celebrities everyday.

But so far finding an internship has been quite difficult. I am seriously clueless of what I have to do and where to look and the only advice my advisor told me was to look online. When he said that I wanted to slap the grin off his face.

I was expecting some help in this process, not to just be thrown into the mix without any direction or help. So I took his advice and started looking online but the problem was most of these places didn't sound interesting. Maybe it was my mindset of having a glamorous life in the city that makes me question every internship inquiry that I look at.

But now I realize that these shows and fantasy's that have been put into my head are probably never going to happen ever. What I never realized was how much competition there is when applying for internships. If you think your the only girl who dreams of working for Cosmo or Glamour you are in for a shock because thousands of girls want the same things you do and might be more qualified than you.

So far my quest has been very boring with emailing companies trying to compose a Cover Letter is one of the most confusing things in this process. Do I stick to the template or do I really put my personality in it? What can make me stand apart?

I know it may sound cliche but I want to have a true learning experience not something that is too easy. I want to be challenged, I want to fail, and even though I was scared as hell I think I would be an amazing asset to any company I work at.

Wish me luck!

Did Julianne Hough Go Too Far?

On Friday, Oct. 25 Julianne Hough e dressed as "Crazy Eyes" from the Netflix series Orange Is the New Black to a Halloween party in Beverly Hills. What was questionable about her costume was not the clothes she wore but her makeup. Hough wore a black face and darkened her eyebrows to try to recreate the character.

She took to Twitter to apologize saying, "I am a huge fan of the show Orange is the New black, actress Uzo Aduba, and the character she has created. It certainly was never my intention to be disrespectful or demeaning to anyone in any way. I realize my costume hurt and offended people and I truly apologize."

I think that the Safe Haven scarlet should have thought the costume through more because her makeup may offend a lot of people. Even though people are becoming less racist from a couple of years ago people should know when they have gone too far. Especially celebrities should be extra careful because what they do affects there image.